Today was kind of a "dark day". I wasn't sure how to think of my day this morning... there was so much that happened yesterday at work and at home. On top of that, there's a few things I'm trying to wrap my heart and head around.
Thinking and feeling has been exhausting lately.
Really, all I could compare it to is how every year Luke Danes (from Gilmore Girls, yes, I love that show) has a Dark Day. It's the day his dad had passed and the town labels it as his dark day because he leaves town and everyone is stuck going to the other joints to eat for the day.
This Saturday marks one year that my great grandmother has been gone. This is the first death in my life that has had such an impact on me. She was the first relative who really made such a huge impact on my being... it's just hard to believe it's been a year. It's a joyful occasion, truly. We were very joyful of her passing and knowing that she's in a beautiful place and able to walk with no pain. I just get sad sometimes remembering the amazing moments I shared with her. But these are moments that make me smile and laugh to myself.
I often catch myself thinking, "what would Ellie think about this?"
There are times where I'll be out shopping with my madre and I'll say, "Ellie would think that's ugly, and I agree, please don't buy it."
It just really hit me today in realizing that it's been a year since her passing. And how much I've grown and matured because of her existence in my life.
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